Turkey break was very good, with five feasts and SNOW. (Even if it was only a little and at two in the morning and not really worth getting so excited about I DON'T CARE SNOWWW) I spent more time at Jake's than I ever have, but seeing him and his mom was very good. :D

Things aren't totally settled with Cory, and he knows he sucks for it, but he seriously fucked up his knee, and now it's puffed up and crunchy, so that's got to be some sort of karma, right? 8D ...I hope he isn't crippled for life, though.

On top of anything bad that I don't feel like complaining about right now, my laptop hates me. I'm getting it fixed (hopefully) on Wednesday, but I might try to do it myself tonight even though my extreme retardation when it comes to computers makes me want to cry. .___.; Bah. At least the semester's almost overrr~

Which reminds me that I never posted my schedule for next semester. I don't know it by heart, but I have to get up even earlier on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. Ew. I'm taking Elementary Japanese II, Comp II, Geography, Post Civil War American History, Computer Sceience, and a seminar course over anime which makes me feel like i'm wasting my money but technically it counts as a humanities course; i say i might change it to something a little less frivolous, but i just don't know gawwwww

I fell in love with Outlaw Star over the break and now wish I could be "Hot Ice" Hilda. Because she is bitching. And I think I've decided to make Aburatsubo's outfit from Mahou Tsukai Tai!! with the black and white fabric I have, yey.

LATERS, FLIST. HARTS.

This weekend has been sort of crazy (though a giant "SUCK MY NUTS" at eight in the morning was a refreshing change of pace), so I just wanted to update right quick with an

O HAY NEW FRIENDS, NICE TO MEET YOU!


I've probably missed all of your introduction posts and such already, which is no good, but we're friended now and can get to know one another anyway so let's be bestest buds k? 8D HARTS.

Now, I wake my roommate up and make her come eat with me.
BERONICA CASTRO, I HOPE YOU ARE ON THE JOB.

ps - people with the name Brock, you are the luckiest in the whole world. ksdhjfkjashdfgkljh SO JEALOUS. SARAH RHYMES WITH NOTHING.

time for an update! \8D/
In this entry I bring news from daily life and stories from this past weekend spent at Izumi-Con, along with pictures from the latter. (Not too many, about eight, but beware.) Hooray! It's going to be huge, so feel free to skip around or ignore completely~

( We'll start with the not-so-fun stuff first )

On to con stuff!

( Izumi-Con and the Weekend of Death )

So...yes. Overall, a very delightful weekend. I can't wait to see those people again and cosplay more!

Weekend Quotes/In-Jokes to Make Sarah and I lol:
"But Galileo was WRONG!"
"You don't need a gun to make a bullet wound. You just need a bullet. And a hammer. And a nail. And MacGyver."
"Worst people EVER!"
"Wouldn't that technically make it a twelve dollar wig?"
"FUCK WE JUST DROVE INTO THE FOG WE'RE GONNA DIE!!"

And I really wish I'd met Vic Mnyanya, if only because of this:

I had a small sort of breakdown today over silly things.

I'm scared about growing up. Thinking that I'll be twenty in two years scares me. I never realized the idea of getting older had such a strong effect on me, and I hate that I get sick over it sometimes. Being a failure and not doing anything with myself is one of my biggest fears. I don't want to be a worthless person who is good for/at nothing.
And I'd forgotten how anxious looking at new college applications makes me. I want more than anything to learn languages and go around the world and experience different cultures first-hand, but it seems so random and far away and makes me wonder why I chose that dream to chase. I know I can do it, which is why I feel ridiculous when I get scared. I hate to cry about being anxious when I know that I can't give up anyway, no matter how daunting the road before me seems. I'd hate myself forever if I gave up, and I'd be disappointed in life constantly, so I've vowed to do my best, but it can't be so bad to take a moment or two to let out those stifled fears from time to time.

Needless to say, I'm much better now. I got it out of my system, but my mom wants me to make a doctor's appointment to see about getting some sort of medication to control the mood swings that come with girly time a little. I'm not opposed to it, just skeptical; Yaz did nothing but make me a wreck and put on weight that drove me insane. Good luck there, I guess. Maybe I'll mellow out on my own. :/

I got my Plato essay done in record time, so I've got tonight to relax a little. I'm going to catch up on sewing and Monster, House and Japanese, and maybe force myself to start the last chapter of Curiosity.

And! The Taiko Drum performance last night was amazingggg. *___* So cool.

I hope everyone is as content with their lives and excited about the future as I am. ♥

...every time I right click the start bar and see "Lock the Taskbar", I think "Rock the Casbah". XD; Is there a way to override something so it says that!? That would be awesome.

Haha, I made a Daria reference.

Either Cory got me extremely sick over the weekend or I'm going through that seasonal crap that happens to me randomly where my throat hurts and I lose my voice for a couple of days. Suuuuck. If it's the former, he will be getting me medicine. If it's the latter, more suuuuuck because I'll just have to tough it out.

On top of this, I'm so...blah. Because of girly time. There are people around me, but if they don't smile in just the right way, I burst into tears. I almost literally started crying about five minutes ago just because one of my friends, who is always playfully mean and calls me retard all the time, didn't say "hi" nicely. And I start thinking that those friends back in BA who rarely speak to me are just forgetting about me even though I know we all have lives to be on with. :/ Blaaaargh.

I just feel like I can't do anything right. That's my biggest complex.

Hopefully I'll feel better all around soon. I hope everyone's much better off than I am at the moment, physically and emotionally.